Bendy Elephant

BENDY ELEPHANT
First extract from Chapter One

The clanging of the phone goads my fourteen year old body from the depths of sleep. The ringing and ringing in the lounge and its echo in the kitchen goes on and on. I squeeze one eye open. Left eye up against the pillow. Wrong eye. Open right eye. Squint at my digital bedside clock. 06.23! On a Saturday morning! A ball of flame starts an immediate burning in my guts. Who’s dead or injured? Where’s Ma and Papa?
“What? Never! Oh My God! Oh My God! Frederick! Frederick! The President’s been murdered! Assassinated. Oh! My! God!”
My mother’s shouting from the lounge makes my heart thump right up to my throat. Keeps on thumping there. I sprint to the lounge, grabbing a T shirt as I go and beating my father by a whisker. Ma has switched on the television. BBC News 24.
“…….President Jameson Welter’s death at 10pm last night. Whilst most Juxonese are still in shock, there are reports of early signs of unrest here in Queenville, the capital of Juxon, a previous colony of Great Britain. The growing tension between the Conservative Cartons and the Liberal Frees has been escalating ever since the election three months ago. The Cartons are accusing the Frees of assassinating the Conservative President. President Jameson Welter has been in office for less than three months. He leaves behind his wife Ermilinia and five young children.
The Frees have consistently accused the Cartons of rigging the election that brought President Welter to power. Since their independence from Great Britain more than sixty years ago, the Cartons have been in office only three times, totalling less than eleven months.
The Cartons are mistrustful of the Frees’ continuing connections with the British. This is aggravated by the chronic tension between the two sides regarding land ownership. Put simply, the Cartons are demanding that the land ‘stolen’ from them last century during British rule be returned to them as the rightful owners. The Frees deny the Carton’s right of ownership and argue that they have papers to prove legal ownership.
Speaking to people on the street this morning, the angry Cartons vow to take every inch of land back and avenge their president’s death. They say they have militarily support from neighbouring Shenroth in the north where many Carton supporters have lived in exile for decades…..”
Behind the reporter the camera is showing hordes of shouting people; men, women and children, smashing car windows, smashing shop windows and looting from the sports shop. Others are laughingly running from the few on duty police with their stolen electrical fans, microwave ovens, raincoats, anything and everything. My mouth dries; I can feel my rough pre-breakfast tongue sticking to my palate. I struggle to swallow. Phew! My heart is thumping and booming under my T shirt like when Mark next door plays his heavy metal music ultra loud. I’ve seen scenes like these before, but this is Queenville, my capital, not some far away place! I know that street! We had lunch at The Gravy Boat! This is near! This is here! Oh My God!
“Papa, what’s going on?” I ask my great supporter. He merely puts his fingers to his lips whilst nodding to whomever on his mobile phone, his grey eyes glued to the screen, the furrows in his forehead deepening into giant ridges. Normally cool and collected, leaving passionate outbursts to my flamboyant mother, I watch sweat dribbling from his forehead down to his black and grey stubbled cheeks. His usually neat hair is all awry from his constant raking through it. He cannot sit still; tut-tutting, shaking his left leg, juggling the telephone and the remote control, changing channels so often and so quickly it becomes a blur. I stare at the vein in his neck, pulsing like mad. I’ve never seen him like this before, ever.  His panic is making me panic. I don’t like it one bit. My heart starts to thump even harder and faster, right against my chest wall. I feel sweaty, panicky, weak. I plop down on the sofa next to Sapphira, my twelve year old sister. I feel a deep sense of doom as my father settles on the BBC News 24 again.

Helping others.

On Sunday evening, as the church bell tolls for 7.30pm I see a young man reaching the 21 mile mark for the London marathon. His sweaty vest, emblazoned with ‘help for heroes’ is matted against his lean body. He is tired. Exhausted. Yet, I see an individual whose whole being is completely focussed on his commitment to his vision of completeling his race.

Sunday evening traffic roars past him. He brings his crutches forward again and again, his amputeed right leg swinging to his rhythm. Close behind him a friend pushes a wheelchair. Because, that’s what mates are for, isn’t it?

Where have we been struggling to do things all by ourselves when it could have been so much easier asking for help? When had we asked for help and discovered that the journey was easier, more fun? When had we supported someone else in their quest and found that, not only was the task completed in half the time, but that it was an excellent learning experience for us? A trouble shared is a trouble halved.

Who will be a mate for today?


My book - self healing

New life, new healing. Spring has arrived! So too new life: chirping birds, blossoms, sunshine.

My book is at the publishers. Called “Bendy Elephant”. Herewith a synopsis of the book that is fiction based on fact.

The Wiggins family is forced to flee their comfortable lifestyle at the start of civil war. This disruption only adds to the dilemmas of 14 year old Luther. He is having enough difficuties with his 12 year old ‘know it all’ sister as well as all the adolescent changes occurring in his life. Despite this, the core of his life is his family. Throughout all the challenges that befalls them, his main aim is to keep the family together.  

 

Self healing in book form

There are many book about self healing for those, who although in deep pain, still cannot bring themselves to ask for or seek help. I too used to be like that. The initial step that helped me was reading books on healing. I realised that most people heal themselves in a myriad different ways. Reading different books gave me a huge selection of choices. 

At present, I too am writing such a book. A novel. Fiction based on fact. About a fourteen year old boy going through adolesence  as well as civil war and how he learns to adjust to his new life. This book will resonate with anyone who has gone through or going through a difficult patch at the moment and needs help to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

It’s about breathing.

Self healing tip for the new year

Welcome to the new year. May it be filled with decisions taken and acted upon until it becomes a self-healing habit. This day, this month, this life time’s tip - BREATHE. That’s all. When we are overwhelmed with life, we tend to hold our breath. BREATHE. Slow deep breaths. In and out until you are calm again. Until you feel strong again. Until you can face the world again. Fill the world with your breath, your life. Well done!

Helping yourself to heal

Self healing has many facets. One way to enhance self healing is by surrounding yourself with likeminded people. Friends, colleagues and family, however well meaning, attach their own perceptions and judgements onto your personal issue. Their kind and caring advice comes from their perceptions, not your gut feelings. Listen to your heart, not your mind.

Taking responsibility for your life = retaining your own power and discarding the robe of victimhood. Learn to visualise exactly what you want by seeing it, feeling it, hearing it, even tasting it as already so. Practice daily. Often. Learn affirmations. Say it over and over again. Believe it. Believe in yourself.

Be willing to succeed more than the opinions of others. 

Self Healing and autumn

Nature is always self healing. Now that it is Autumn in the northern hemisphere, many trees are shedding their leaves, slowing its growth to decrease the work it has to do in Winter. Animals are preparing to hibernate  to preserve their energy now that less food is available.

During our dark, ill phases we curl up foetal like, nurturing ourselves back to health, to balance.  

Be inspired by nature. It balances and self heals effortlessly. In our everyday lives we hope to heal through upheaval, fear, dependence on others’ presricptions, advice, expertise. In nature, there is no pressure to achieve by a specific time. Time is the healer.

Children too follow natural paths. Observe little children taking their first steps. They fall down many times. They don’t give up. They might rest; they might revert to crawling for a short period, then back they come, putting one foot in front of the other. They walk because they practice all the time. And just look at their faces when they achieve an inch of progress: it radiates light, they shine with ear to ear smiles.

What do we tend to do? We fall, we rest, we try again. When we do not achieve our goal the first time, or even at the fifth attempt, we give up. The light bulb would never had been invented at the time had Edison given up after 100 attempts. He persisted over 1000 times. Now we take electric light for granted.

What would happen if we were to celebrate each and every attempt, knowing that at each and every attempt we have learnt something new, how not to do it, how to fine tune?

Anything worthwhile takes time. Every time we learn, we heal some part of us, we bring into balance some part of us, whether it is mind, body, spirit or a little bit of each.

Self Healing, take courage

On one hand, self healing really isn’t about being courageous, because everything you need or desire is already there wihin you, waiting for the moment when you say ‘I can!’. And yet, nowadays, the concept of self healing is about being courageous and following a path untrodden by the masses. 

Who are you? Are you somone who feels there is more to life than swallowing pills or taking days off sick when things get too tough? Are you thirsting to be in control of your life rather than being a victim of circumstances? Are loving friends and family offering lorry loads of advice on what you should do rather than what you feel is the right path for you? Is this causing an increasing imbalance in your life?

Where do you go? What is the next step you take? How would you love to see yourself a year from now? Five years from now? What are you doing? How are you feeling? Did you decide to restore your balance of your whole being?

The opposite of courage is conformity.

Self Healing - you can do it!

Self Healing isn’t about healing a system. It isn’t about addressing signs and symptoms. It is about restoring balance back into your life. The truth is that healing resides within us; cuts and bruises come and go. You heal exactly as you breathe - from a deeper consciousness that does not question whether yoy can or cannot you do it, because the simple truth is that you always have been able to do so.

Yet, as the scale of imbalance becomes larger, we tend to doubt our abilities and trust others’ opinions of what we should or should not do to re-establish our balance.

What have you done today to maintain your balance? Did you rest a while after becoming out of breath? Did you rest your leg when your knee hurt? Did you drink fluids when you felt thirsty? These balancing acts are so ‘normal’ that you don’t even think of them as balancing.

So, where else can you balance your life, now that you know you really can do so?

Discovery Of Self

There is a candle burning on my desk. It reminds me of the light, the energy, the dream we have within ourselves. Oftentimes, it is so deeply shoved down and buried by societal demands, by what we should or should not do, by conformity, that we quite forget we have this dream, this energy, this light.

Occasionally, we hear, see and feel something happening to others, and it stirs within us a vague feeling of ‘knowing’, a yearning, only to be bedded down out of sight and feeling again. Throughout our lives, this ‘something’ continues its gentle tapping to awaken us, until one day, through serendipitous ways, some of us heed this ‘tapping’ and decide to bring that dream, that energy, that light to the forefront of our lives. And so begins a different journey.

This journey is filled with wonderful, unexplainable interconnections and coincidences. It awakens the resources within ourselves that have always been there, and it raises our game to new heights that were completely unimaginable before we opened ourselves to that gentle ‘tapping’. We meet others on the same route, supporting each other, awakening the gentle giant of potential within us. Others see, hear and feel that tapping, and continue to choose to ignore it, time after time.

Who are you?

Comments Welcome,

Steph.